Identity?

Growing up, I was one of the millions of Army kids around the country. And I can safely say that we share one characteristic trait: A skewed sense of identity. I didn’t care if I was from a regular Tam-Brahm household. As far as I am concerned, I’m a nomad, an amalgamation of cultures. The question ‘Where are you from?’ has been the most difficult to answer. Well, I’m from a lot of places!

Each city I’ve lived in, I’ve fallen in love with it. There’s the initial adjustment issue..new people, new school, totally different atmosphere.. But then there become a few regular fixtures in my life. Soon, I can navigate the roads. The neighbourhood shopkeeper recognizes me. I know the specialties at the little bakery at the other end of the city. And I’m home again.

So, in me, I have a bit of Bangalore, Kolkata, Mumbai and Chennai. And also the influences of my friends who are from far flung places across the country. I can relate to all of them, see through their perspective. And this, by far, has been the most valuable lesson I’ve learnt in my life. Cultural empathy.

I’ve never been bothered by the fact that I’m not a true-blue Tamilian in the sense of the word. Now that I’m living in Chennai, that doesn’t really work to my favour. ‘What sort of Tamilian are you?’ is something I hear all day. Well, not a regular one, I guess!

But what the heck! Y’kno what I am? I’m Indian.

Into The Abyss

The dark clouds descend.

the omens, apparent.

Time alone can tell

when the night shall envelop you

in its cold embrace.

The remnants of the past

attempt to break through.

Their corpuscular rays

not quite succeeding in their attempt.

Drawing inspiration

akin to a breath

on a crystal twilight.

Trying to rebuild

what once was.

Lost in the abyss

that is now the perception.

Feeling the way across

the direction is unclear.

But look

it is the sanctuary now

that which drew all unto itself.

What Lays Broken

The beginning had promise.

And the excitement of many more to make and keep.

The journey had just begun.

I had closed my eyes

To take in the fragrance.

Only to open them and see

That there was no one there beside me.

I tried searching

For that elusive memory.

But it only exists

In the realms of my consciousness.

Not all those who wander are lost

Perhaps

They search for a reason

To wander some more.

To keep them safe

From what led them there.

Now

The future lays at my feet.

Its million pieces shattered.

With the shards of dreams never to be

Piercing their way into me.

How to breakup with your Girlfriend?

Been ages...

How are my delectably demented friends?

I've been good. Slightly fucked up, but mostly good. I've been (not) studying, (not) taking care of myself and pretty much stalking Mr. HANV. (i am such a saad person). Talked to him for the first time today. Dammit, all this crush-y business is such a pain. Esp. since he already has the "other" 50%. I guess the saddest part of being a human is that that we refuse to see logic even when its out there, in a fluorescent rabbit suit, holding a large basket of Easter Eggs and singing Bieber's "Baby" at the top of its voice.

Pictured above: Logic.

Demmit! This is stupid! Its also incredibly girly! X(

Blah blah. I don't know why I waste time this way.

I have more important things to think about.

I just can't remember them.

Sigh.

Happy Halloween...

Hope you have a spookalicious day ;D

Are you getting old???

I miss all the crazy, dumb things i did whn i was a kid. We had this room freshener in our bathroom. One day I read the label and found that the major ingredient was alcohol. As a pyromaniac in the making, I decided to light a match in front of the nozzle while spraying for a little entertainment. Being cautious I pointed it out the window. It was like pointing a flame thrower out the window actually. Now that went on for an hour or so. Lots of fun for sure, but not so much so when my parents found the huge burn mark on the wall of the building and the residents complaining about it.

So coming back, many people pretend to be somewhere in life they are but actually somewhere else. You might be fifty and act twenty, you might be twenty and act fifty.. You are nineteen and you still wonder if eggs would explode if you left them boiling in the pan, once the water was gone. You are NINETEEN and  you are a control freak!!?!!??!! Seriously wtf is tht???

Some of us don't know where we stand.. but as usual, KJ is here to the rescue with this very helpful quiz. Answer the questions honestly and find out exactly how old you really are... I know, u are probably thanking me  already... 

Okay, lets see...

You're at a bar and your friend buys a round of tequila shots. You...

(1) Down your shot, then your friend's shot, then order another round.

(2) Down your shot, thank your friend, and retire home for the evening.

(3) Turn down the shot - you have assignments tomorrow.

(4) This entire scenario is unrealistic - bars? What is this, college?

Your friends are camping out for concert tickets. You...

(1) Get a tent and food -- you're in.

(2) Give them money and ask them to buy you a ticket

(3) Pass --  can you believe the crap those kids are listening to these days??

(4) The music's too loud, parking is a pain, and everyone's on drugs and intoxicated. No, thanks.

You're house sitting in your friend's ridiculous flat. You...

(1) Throw a booze party that will make every damn person throw up.

(2) Invite a small group of friends over and have sane fun.

(3) You have a date with his comfortable couch, a glass of wine, and the latest and watch something on TV.

(4) You leave early because you're old and depressed and it's strikingly clear you'll never be able to afford a house of similar size.

You get a girls' number. You...

(1) Call her that night for a prank call.

(2) Wait the allotted 3 days and ask her out for coffee.

(3) Wait the allotted 3 days to call and plan a dinner.

(4) Don't call because phones are too confusing.

The stock market is crashing. You...

(1) Don't care because you aren't invested in the stock market.

(2) Care a little because some of your buddies are on it.

(3) Start looking for a cliff to jump off of.

(4) Find it exciting to actually have something to talk to people about.

It's the first beautiful day outside in a while. You...

(1) Fill a thermos with rum and step outside.

(2) Go on a road trip!!

(3) Go for a stroll in the garden.

(4) Bird-watch with the new binoculars you bought.

You just found out that you won the lottery. You...

(1) Spend half the money on booze and the other half on the party.

(2) Buy a really cool car that you've always wanted.

(3) Diversify thru mutual funds and CD's.

(4) Do not want to cash in the ticket for fear that its too risky to carry around a lot of money.

You're at a sporting event and a jerk is causing a ruckus. Do you:

(1) Hit him with a beer bottle and when he looks over, point to the guy next to you.

(2) Berate him about why he's being a jerk and if he wants to fight you say, "Save your ass buddy!!" and hit him until he collapses.

(3) Be a sissy and alert it to a watchman nearby.

(4) N/A. Don't attend sporting events because of chance of inclimate weather and escalating price of concessions and seriously, have you seen what they're charging for a cup of pint of beer nowadays? It's criminal.

You're flipping thru the channels and you see " Bay watch " just started. You...

(1) Watch it - that show is awesome and appeals to all ages

(2) Watch it - that show is awesome and appeals to all ages

(3) Watch it - that show is awesome and appeals to all ages

(4) Watch it (at an increased volume) - that show is awesome and appeals to all ages

Your dream wedding would be:
(1) I am not getting married, ever!!
(2) on the beach..with all my close friends and family
(3) traditional! (whatever your culture/religion is)
(4) already married..

Assign yourself the corresponding points for each answer and tally them.

For instance, if you answered choice (1) to a question, give yourself one point, and so on and so forth.

10-15 - You're young at heart, or you're an immature jerk. Either way, do as you please.

16-25 - You're still hanging on to that last vestige of youth. Many people your age shake their head at your antics.

26-32 - You're starting to get that old person smell. Give it up

33-40 - You are probably dead already.

P.S : I m glad i came up with this.. i understand the fact that i m your only savior!! God bless you all.. I am okay if he gives u my blessings too.. I don't need any.. 

*almost on the verge of crying*

sob sob..

Of Things Quirkily Chennai

1. It’s the land of jasmine flowers. Even auntys who go for walks along the beach in the evening have the entire season’s flowers pinned to their hair.


2. There are two kinds of Tamilians. One, people who can understand what their maid says and reply to that. Two, people who search around for a translator(preferably the grandma next door).


3. The males expose more skin(read: flaunt their calves) than females. Why, oh why, would I want to see Mr. Hairy Legs, ride a motorcycle with his dhoti tied up above his knees?


4. The heroes in movies who resemble the vada pav sellers you see outside Ghatkopar station. Where are the Hrithiks and SRKs of Kollywood? And talking about movies……


5. The Rajinikanth Obsession. Where in the world would you see milk abhishek being done to a cutout? In the theatre lobby? I might get taken out to the streets and stoned for writing that, so incase you don’t hear from me for a while, you know what would have happened.

The Ax-Logic

P.S.I LOVE U

READ P.S.I LOVE YOU???

yah.. i kno.. its too tooo late to wryt like a revu on this book.. coz lik its released like yrs yrs back.. but stil i jus finished readin it...n now it feels lik.. I VE NO MOTIVE/ AIm in life left..

NO MORE GERRY's letters... sobb!! sobb!!!

but.. as i was readin de book....

yes i did fall in love wid GERRY.. n felt pity for HOLLY's condition...n was.. n am so JEALOUS!!of HOLLY....


but apart from all of dis...

HOLLY's FRNDS..

i fell so in love wid dem.. coz evry tym i read any thing related to der SPENSIVE shoppin n late nyt chats... all i did..

WAS MISSSED N MISSED SOOOOOOO MUCH ALL MY GIRLFRIENDS>>>

NIRVANA TAURME AVIE SU__.. n loads of oders...

chattin til late nyt or earlieee mornin... and shop exxpensive stuff.. eat lik bigg fat hogs.. decide to go on DIETs... lik for sure... from de next recess break.. but JUMPIn into de dubba's filled wid.. yumiee sandwiches n roti sabjees n noodles n rice... n oh!! ya!!! de grrreeeaattttt PIZZA we use to mak at de end of recess...

i miss every moment i spent wid u gurls...

summ realli realli spl moment i reli wanna lik QUOTe...

wid budhie a.k.a TAURME : TYMS WE USED TO GO TO MONGINIS N HOG POST TUTIONS... n ticklin u to wake u up for tutions...

wid NIRVANA: dose sleep overs at ur place.. one on de 24-25th of december.. n watchin movies it 4 in de morn...

wid AVIE: de impromptu skits we did on stage... i git a bbeeegg round of applause!!!


MORAL OF THE "BLOG"....


I MISSSS N MISSS U ALL.. SO SO SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH....


HUGS , KISSES... ROSES.. N EVRYTHING ELSE... LOOVVEE U ALL


SARU A.K.A SADDIE


ADMIN EDIT: real names were removed

No sure how many share the same problem...

I like sleeping while listening to the rain fall.

That can be just a wee bit hard when you live in a desert.

Courtesy Maca, I present to y'all...

RainyMood.com

Enjoy....